The Saddest week of my life!

Well this was the middle of the week, but I hope everyone else had a good Valentines day, I however thought mine was going okay despite waking up to Orange Jello in my new carpet! I was not a happy camper with two little boys. And then to top all of that off i got the worse phone call of my life up to this point, they called to tell me my papa had passed away:( That just broke my heart. So we have been on the go this week, we had to do visitation on tuesday night and then we had the funeral on wed! The saddest saddest day i have ever had to face. I am hoping that all of my family will be okay and i know that hes in a better place it will just be hard at the holiday times, I am beginning to come to peace with it all, but its hard and i dont want it to be real anymore, I just want to be able to see him again, i have the pics and the memories and i will forver have them, i now have to open up my memories to my kids, they got to see him for a little bit of his life and although he has been sick for most of my life you wouldnt know it by the way he has always teased us kids and picked on us and joked around! he was very fun loving! My grandma is one very STRONG woman and i look up to her for that, i am not sure i could handle all she has in the past! I love you both mama and papa, and to you papa i will one day be your little girl again!